July 31, 2023

They tried to bury me.
They didn’t realize I was a seed.
Sinéad O’Connor

Thresholds that lead to death. My death, if we’re getting personal about it. And if I deny that it’s personal then I’ve totally lost the plot because if it’s not personal then there’s no point in talking or writing about it as it becomes rather meaningless mental gymnastics. On this Crone journey, I have no time for that. I’m navigating the looming and very real thresholds that lead to death. And that’s very personal.

No. This isn’t an announcement. I’m not planning on going anywhere anytime soon. Well, except for Ireland and my dear husband would reflect that it seems I’m always getting ready to go to Ireland. There’s actually truth in that. 

But the thresholds are very present.

At one time I wrote about a threshold. I now realize there are many on this journey. And when people die, either a friend, or relative, or someone who had a profound impact on my life and in the world…someone like Sinéad O’Connor…another threshold arrives demanding my reflection. Especially reflection on how, as a friend put it, I have more life in the rearview mirror than the windshield. Reflection on how I’m living my Crone life. 

They tried to bury us. As Crone, I’ve lived through decades of patriarchal suppression. And clearly that is not behind us. But with Sinéad’s death and above statement she made in the Nothing Compares video, a threshold landed that asks if I’m still a seed. Is my life still generative? Am I still making a meaningful contribution?

I believe that I am. No, I know I am. But it’s a question warrants constant consideration.

The soul song we sing as we navigate the thresholds of this Crone landscape is essential to sustaining the quality of our journey.

I just finished Bono’s book, Surrender, and found these lyrics. In this moment and for this time, they are the lyrics of my soul song. I am not afraid to die. I am not afraid to live. And I know something amazing is landing in my life. I am still a seed.

Blessings of Crone Wisdom,
Judith